Another one of those moments that people will ask “where were you when…” happened yesterday.  It immediately transported me back to 9/11. I was in Les Eyzees, a town in the South of France, on a holiday, traveling with a group, visiting prehistoric sites and Medieval villages.  When we got word of the attack on the Twin and Towers all the travelers were gathered together into the one hotel that had a TV.  As we watched the surreal footage of what had taken place in NYC I remember feeling disembodied – as if I were an astronaut space walking, outside the safety of the space capsule, looking at the distant blue home planet, wondering what’s going happen next?  My mind, body and spirit were totally disoriented.  I personally didn’t have family in NY, but other people in the room did.  Of course the first thought for everyone was, are our loved ones okay?  Are they alive?  Have other cities in the US been targeted?  Then will I be able to leave France and go home?   Is this a beginning of something huge?  And as we all know now, almost a decade later, the answer to that was yes.  Yes, life changed.  Yes, stress increased.  Yes, we’ve had to cultivate ways to not live in fear, but to be aware, and to keep living productively and positively.  Yesterday, May 1, 2011 I was home in Los Angeles. The Health Habitravels May 1-7 trip to Costa Rica hadn’t happened as planned, but I was fine with that.  I’m working on several business projects here in Los Angeles, and was glad to be staying put. I happened to check my blackberry and saw a friend’s text that Osama Bin Laden had been killed.  Right then another friend to deliver the same message. I had that same feeling of being disembodied that the initial news of 9/11 stirred in me.  An “is this real???” feeling.  I went online, watched Obama’s speech and saw the footage of crowds celebrating.  I checked facebook and read posts.  A decade of 9/11 we live in a world of instant global communication.  An onslaught of visceral reactions from people were being posted and tweeted.  It amazed me that people could write so quickly about this.  My own thoughts and emotions were too mixed.  I couldn’t encapsulate them into a short post or a tweet.  Today as I talked to others I found many had my mixed reactions. NPR interviews with experts in various fields and those in the military corroborated many of my thoughts and feelings.  Bin Laden was a man possessed and driven by hatred.  He caused great suffering.  He changed history and the way we live.   His physical being may be gone, but now we need to deal with the possible retaliations and international upheavals that could happen.  Fear fosters fear and hatred breeds more hatred.  This is a somber moment. We need to reflect and learn from what’s happened this last decade.  We need to release blame.

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